I'm really struggling today. Its beginning to dawn on me how significant our meeting was as it more or less confirms the end of our marriage and that frightens me. I am still trying to think in LRT but I struggle to be upbeat when I am in her company. I just want her to snap out of this madness and return to her normal self as its so painful for me to see how my beautiful, loving wife who was an amazing mum, has turned into this wildchild. She told me yesterday that she was relieved after our meeting as she has been wanting me to let her go and move on. How on earth can I do that when I feel so crap. I am trying to stay positive but its hard and I can only hope that my counselling tomorrow night helps to get me through this really bad spell...
