[BrightFuture]

That was my first X. The second one (I thought) cared about me. We were also able to talk about our disagreements. Now I realize that we both were still holding back a lot. My current H did give me more attention at first. I wanted more though. I behaved like a little girl sometimes bullying him to give me more. A few years ago he even told me that I needed to handle my emotions better, because he is not my Dad.

Actually, you might be right and this is how it normally happens. In our M we were supposed to help each other to heal our childhood traumas. Did we both fail? I definitely failed to help H. Ironically he is helping me now, after he left. I’m trying really hard to overcome this.