Oh and as for H getting mixed signals...he gives them...not me...
He initiated the sex..after turning me down a few nights prior and saying he was never going down that road again... and then he spent the night...and allowed me to cuddle and snuggle all over him....had breakfast with me and then left in the morning with son for school....
He offered to buy me a computer....I didn't ask for one....
He finds excuses to come over here...I don't ask him to plow driveway or gravel driveway...in fact, called him and told him son could do driveway, if he didn't feel like doing it and he insisted on doing it....I've asked him to come home and work on the marriage...asked him to go to counseling...told him we need to take things slow and rebuild our friendship and love...
He said he would have dinner with me (prawns) and then denied ever saying it...
I don't ask him to come in when he does do the driveway, but do offer him coffee when he comes in...
I do ask for things I need..like a ride to the store or rides for son to school....I don't have a vehicle and don't drive due to dwi...from past drinking...so am forced to sometimes ask for rides...but I also take cabs a lot...so as not to have to ask
Anyway, I am trying hard to send the steady signal that I want my marriage to work...but right now I am not going to call him and I am determined to get a 100% grade on this effort...today is day 2 of 15 days....I can do this...I plan to keep busy and post a lot if I have to...do whatever it takes, but NOT call him....
Next few mornings gym Tues-Thursday. Tonight AA meeting Wednesday.... am going out to dinner Thursday...no plans yet Friday...counseling from 3 to 5 intake session...then no social plans yet maybe movie with son Sat...Valentines day dance and dinner ...AA Sunday ...Church
