Need help saving my family - part 10

[Scorp7]

I would never consider having more time with my kids to reduce the amount of support. It blows me away that some people are so low that they actually do that. My only concern is that I have my kids with me as much as possible. Ideally that would be every day (I'm not closing the door on a R someday) but 50/50 would be liveable for my kids and myself.

I likely should have my L communicate to my W, or maybe I should do it myself, that I will pay her the same amount of support regardless. That may at least help to ease her mind on the financial side of things.

I agree, I don't want the court to decide at all. I didn't want lawyers involved in the situation either. This will be an interesting week because my W is going to be served with papers which may make things rockier for a bit. It actually makes me ill to think about having to do that, despite everything that has happened in the last 6 months, I still love her totally.

I'm slowly getting better again. The last month or so I've felt like I've taken a step back. I'm working out pretty well every day again which makes me feel a thousand times better. I went for a long hike yesterday which is something I'm hoping to make a regular deal. Besides that, my Dad and I hung out on the weekend which was cool. I'm still very slowly getting back into music. I've had thoughts of booking a show or two just to get back out there again but I'm not sure I'm ready for it.

I've always hated being alone so it's tough since that is how I find myself most of the time when I'm not at the office. I miss having my W (my best friend) to share my life with.