Oxford1 there is something you have now for sure and its yourself, the other thing its time, relax and read before you do anything else, there is not fix in a slow time, it might exist but it will only be a temporary fix not a permanent one.
Now, go ahead and read my sitch, you will see an EGO drived person who came here bombing with post and expecting responses from members within minutes....I didnt got the responses, infuriated me and went to attack members, I attacked their comments, MrBond will give you great responses, and many other members, our responses are time responses, what that means? It means that now at this point where you are you will not agree with most of them, in a few weeks, months, you will agree with them, this is a spiritual path and everyone of the members here who reconcile will tell you that the biggest change they experienced was to become more spiritual oriented, they grew up and experience changes they never tough possible.
I am getting there, and you can too, keep reading and if you need to, write notes. This should be your homework from now on and for the next 2 or 3 weeks:
Every day do this: -3 gratitudes -exercising -meditation -journaling -ramdom acts of kindness
For example: you wake up in the morning and you say 3 times thank you, thank you for being alive, thank you for having a roof, thank you for having food.
Then you exercise anytime during the day, you can start with 10 or 15 minutes at the beginning but definetly exercise.
Start the morning with a 10 or 15 mins meditations, there are many apps that can keep you on track.
Journaling: you can write down in a notebook or journal how you feel in this forum.
Ramdom acts of kindness: give your place on the line to an elder, help somebody with their groceries or simply ask from your heart to the person who you get the coffee from how was their day, show that person that you really mean it.
All those things will help you to start developing a change, if you want a change in your life you have to start with microchanges, thats a way to start focus in the changes you have done and dont say things like, I just exercise 10 mins, I wish I could exercise 2 hours.... Evenctually youll get there
When the student its ready, the teacher will appear... Even after all this time the sun never says to the Earth, "You owe me." Look what happens with a love like that,It lights the whole sky.
focus in the changes you have done and dont say things like, I just exercise 10 mins, I wish I could exercise 2 hours.... Evenctually youll get there 
