Well, h tried to put the reality of a d in my head today when he was here. I wouldn't let him.
H said he was going to have to talk to HR about insurance once all the d paper work was filled out. I said yes, but we might work things out and then I let it drop.
A bit later H said the appraiser will be coming by to appraise the house in about 2 weeks ...I said yes, it will just be a drive by right? He said No, it's a 500 appraisal...they will come in...I said..I will have the house ready...he said the higher the appraisal the more equity in the house...I said yes and the more money we could get in a home equity loan for the decks or the garage for the house...if we work things out... LOL.... H did not say anything I do not have to agree to his plans...just like he does not have to agree to mine...LOL
H got ready to leave I gave him a hug told him to watch out for moose on the road and drive safe...
Oh! He said he was willing to spend 1400 on a new computer and printer for me and I told him thank you very much...I can go online and look at computers...he also said son can keep old computer...and I asked him to leave me 200 for the 2 weeks he was gone which is what he usually does...but to do it in four checks so I could send some off to credit cards...and he left me 290...instead...which was very generous for him...his actions are not matching his words..
Now, I have to work on not calling H while he is at work. H will not call me...I am pretty sure of this. So, I need to keep myself busy and happy and just focus on myself and my son. It will be a very difficult two weeks but I can do it...I have done it before...and I can do it again....
I will take it one day at a time. God is great. God is my guide. I will not let even H come between God and me this time I db. That is partly where I failed last time around.
