Wants to leave again after a month!!!

[DFE]

I guess one way to tell I haven't detached is every comment he makes about the D gives me anxiety. I hope to get to a place where it no longer effects my mood. He is so casual and friendly about it. Talks to me as he would a friend or a neighbor. Why is it so hard for me to do the same and get out of this with whatever dignity I have left if any.