Sometimes I wonder why I am putting up with this torture? I am hoping to repair things when h cannot look me in the eye, will not touch me, hug me, kiss me, sleep in the same room as me. H is having ea and pa that he won't admit, they are hffs only...ugh I am not that dumb. I keep hoping the nice h will come back. But I am only one trying to fix things. I know he is in mlc. But is it normally this bad? Everyone thinks I am insane to live this way.
