After a disastrous Wednesday I just flat out ignored her all day Thursday. I woke up Friday morning and just had this feeling of acceptance it was over and my anger towards W and OM was definitely lowered for some reason (probably answered prayer). I was just going into business mode with her - kids and divorce terms. I have a meeting with my lawyer to get the divorce papers drawn up and filed next week.
So... Friday night she talks to the kids on the phone and before I can hang up she says she's been thinking. She wonders if there's anyway for us to still work at this point. I told her I'm tired of talking about it, I told her I felt very used these past two weeks, I need her to plan out how we're going to get to where we need to be, and show me some action.
Saturday she tells me she has a plan of what she wants/needs to do. Sunday she goes to our church (which she hasn't been to since December) and talks to our pastor for an hour, and then she sits with me and the kids for the church service.
She is now telling me she is going to breakup with OM (I'm assuming Monday or Tuesday) and wants us to work. Her lease is up at the end of April and I've told her she can't move back in at this point, so she wants to find a roommate to live with and not get her own place.
This is going to take a lot of time and my guard is up... but today she took some steps that showed me she is serious. Not just talk, but actual action.
We will also see how OM responds to her breaking up with him and what that means for the kid they're having. She is hoping that he doesn't want anything to do with the kid and will give up the rights, but I don't know...
I will hold off on filing for divorce for at least a week and see if she follows through with what she told me.
