I guess you think this song is about you?

[willbwell]

my authentic self is family and friend oriented. I do believe in doing good and doing my best. when I mess up...I do kick myself. I try and remember and not become complacent.
I am taking a study break just now...I focus on my classes. On my list is to improve my typing skills, to do my resume.
As part of my classes, I will do an externship in August.
I am taking care of these things I need to do for me.
I am taking care of what I need to do for kids. Presently that means organzing their summer activities...and of course, the regular day to day.

This I can do and I do it very well. I know that. I enjoy doing it.
It is hard( as everyone knows) to not think about our spouse.
I don't hold anger towards him. if anything I am so sad for what he is missing. He's a grown up though, I know that. I think there is underlying depression and guilt that is too much for him. He doesn't want to recognize it.
easier to just walk away. He knows I am a strong woman. He knows I will take care of our children.

almost, I would like to say to him the Cheryl Crow song line...
If it makes you happy, why the hell are you so sad?