I've decided I drive too much! lol It seems all I do is think about R when I'm driving. Driving myself crazy...no pun intended.

Had a very vivid dream last night. I was having a R talk with my H and a "made up" OW. In the dream I was not happy because she was not a "skank." I even said that to her. She was however very demanding of my H and rude to me. He told me he was moving to KY with her and when I asked about the kids he said he would see them more than he does now. I do know that it is only a dream but it is playing on one of my fears. Craziness.

Told my D15 we could go shopping today. We have a wedding next weekend. His niece. Little worried because it is a wedding and it is "his" family. As far as I know the only one who knows is one sister and her h and kids (I'm close with them). I'm doing okay emotionally so hopefully I will be fine, definitely limit the alcohol intake.

J


Me-44 (45)
H- 50 (51)
M-'96

S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)

BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas)
home Oct(sep rooms)
(EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed)
insists wants D through July 2015
no more talk of D since