A positive update! Since posting last, I feel so much better.
Kml.. I have taken a lot of your advice to heart and put it into action! I have been exercising a lot lately, and getting out a lot more, to do fun things and just living life! I have been dancing around the house almost non-stop! I feel a lot better, overall. And I am feeling so much happier!
I also took your financial advice, and have done a lot of financial legwork over the past few weeks. Next week I would like to sit down with H one evening and figure out how to split finances. And I now have a very good idea of what my new living expenses will be. I have come up with a reasonable budget. I feel a lot better having figured all of that out!
I am actually enjoying having him out of the house.. is that a bad thing? I have been loving having some alone time, and also loving the fact that I no longer have to worry about H, and whether he wants to work on the relationship anymore. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted!! I feel like moving forward with life.
I have done a LOT of thinking lately, about my relationship that I had with H. A lot of introspection into where things went wrong, but mostly realizing that there were a lot of key components in our marriage that were missing. That I never really noticed were missing until we separated, and I have started to really think about it.
Just realizing that there are a lot of personal needs that were not met, that could have easily been met by him, but he didn't care to take the time. Such as, he never really cared to take interest in my activities, and what sort of things I am really passionate about. He often never bothered to even ask about my day, and he wasn't that supportive in general.
I feel better, much better, about letting go of the relationship. I feel at peace with it. I do not want to go back. I don't like the feeling of emptiness I had, for years feeling like I am not good enough, and the feeling of taken for granted.
Thanks again DB friends for all of your support. Love this group here!
-CP (Cupcake Princess) ...lol.
M: 8 yrs T:14 Twins:7 S:5 BD:'NLILWY': Feb/2013 Mar/Apr/May: MC June: "living in limbo" Sept 12: H moves out Oct 20: reconciling Jan-Feb 2014:MC Feb 2014: separating, and H moved out.
I have been loving having some alone time, and also loving the fact that I no longer have to worry about H, and whether he wants to work on the relationship anymore. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted!! I feel like moving forward with life. 