spouse has friend divorcing and that relationship is very bad too. texts constantly on phone with i'm assuming friends and family and probably a few friends met online (makes me jealous of course but its what I did when I was speaking to old friend). Souse says they are happier without me and stays at work late so they don't have to be around me.
yes, i'm only beginning to make substantial visible changes and it's hard to judge in such a short time. spouse often leaves when I'm at home to go be by their self. I drank heavily for the 1st have of our marriage and to that have very few memories of the heartache I caused and spouse remembers every detail. My memory is so bad I'm ashamed of it so before it was just easier to lie to hide my deficiency. Now spouse drinks heavily in other room all hours of the night and gets very little sleep. spouse brings up my past every chance they can to push me away and reminds me of all my failures.
spouse has spoken on phone to my previous friend and confirmed emotional affair only. but doesn't believe it because of our previous history. I tried asking for a trial period to see if we could work things out but no go. About every time we would have a bad time before now another child would be expecting so we always had a distraction to keep us occupied.
Sorry, I just don't know what details will help.
W-37 Me-37 M-16yrs & 5days W "Done" Day = Valentine Day 2014 D-8/13/2014 S16 S13 S11 D8
