Had a good talk with W last night...not sure if it's in line with DBing, but she asked me how my IC session was, and I said it was good and that it had actually helped me realize that I wanted to apologize for a couple of things I had done in the past that at the time I didn't realize were hurtful. She thanked me for the apology and said it meant a lot to her to hear me acknowledge those hurtful things. Then she offered an apology of her own, for treating me so poorly (her words) the past 6 by going out so much and drinking, basically treating me like a live in babysitter...actually, like even less than a babysitter because at least with a babysitter you give them the respect of letting them know where you are and when you'll be home.
The thing is, I'm starting to get that "babysitter" feeling again... and it doesn't sit right with me. I haven't said anything because it seems like DBing says not too...at least not right now. And I'm just trying to DB my ass off and at the very least keep the peace until Sunday when we go out for our "talk" and I find out exactly what it is she has to say. It definitely doesn't seem fair and equitable though that because she works nights on the weekend, she takes that as an opportunity to go out and party after work while I'm home with the kids...and then sleeps in the next day while I get up with the kids because she comes home drunk at 2:00/2:30 in the morning. In fact part of her whole apology last night was acknowledging how unfair that was, and yet I get a text at 11:00 tonight saying that work was crazy and she's going out for "a drink or two" and will be back "later tonight". WTF is that? Is it DBing to just say "ok" to that? I feel like saying "look, if you're serious about divorcing, then we need to get serious about what's fair about going out/childcare.
H: 43 W: 37 M: 11 years T: 12 years S: 11 D: 8 ILYBINILWY, "I want to move out" and "I want a divorce": 3/23/14 MC started: 9/22/14 Affair and past infidelity discovered: 9/26/14 Piecing: 10/20/14
