Wife moved out to be with her Tour Guide Lover

[MrBond]

"I have repented over and over about my ills."

That repentance is how you feel that you've forgiven yourself. But evidently your W didn't.

"I know she did not have to go to him, but he is such a Casanova."

But to be honest, if she wanted to be with you she wouldn't have even entertained the thought of going with him.

"I do know she plans on moving home after Aprul 15. So if I am so evil why would she move back home?"

That's what you don't understand. You're not "evil". She just chooses not to be with you right now. Because you share kids together and are married, right now she sees it as a shackle. And again, that's just the way she feels right now.

What you can do right now is to write down the things that used to make her family both things that you did alone and things you did as a family. Slowly work those things in. Continue to go and have fun with you son and do things that she never would have wanted to do.

"How am I supposed to handle her? I keep hearing to do the 180 but it is hard when there is a kid involved and even harder that I am so addicted to her."

It's not hard with a kid at all. I mean I have two kids and was able to detach. You can do it. Just lose the ego and read up on how couples communicate. Use this time to become a student of your W. See what patterns you may be missing.