I have finally learned how to be roommates with my H. I think that was truly the hardest thing for me to do. You can't care about where they go, what they do, or whether they come back to the house on time. I call it, removing ones head from spouse rear end.
I took myself on vacation for 16 days and made sure to be very present. I woke up to the warm sun in January appreciating my life again. I returned with some great tools and confidence.
My kids have all been moving forward, my middle son in officers training, and me taking classes again at the Jr college. I have some great support around me! Funny how you can't see that when your so involved in letting his MLC take you down.
I have some hard work ahead, but I approach life now with DB tools and they are pretty handy in other aspects of my life as well. I DBed my own parents, we finally have a R with solid footing. A R with my parents finally is like a new start toward my new life. It began with them after all.
His crisis has made me go thru my own journey, thankfully I am of health mind and able to come out on top. He's now witness to my progress and he's at my door peeking in, smiling at my ability to be happy again, understanding it's not about him. He's free! He doesn't know how to feel about that!
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
