I have been off the boards for a bit. I just caught up with your sitch.
Dude - you are starting a journey now buddy. As hard as it is going to be, you need to leave your past where it is...in your past. I suspect that over the next few weeks/months, you will torture yourself with a bunch of "I wish I had", "I coulda". Don't.
Instead
Take your energy and focus on really fixing YE once and for all.
Understand why you are the way you are.
Take time to really figure out who YE REALLY wants to be - not what others (myself included) suggest you should be.
You are blank canvas right now man....you really can be whatever you want to be.
So....what is the next step for you? What is the one thing you really want to start working on? For YOU?
Peace, Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
