Wife wants a divorce

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just a status update.

Apparently seeing me play with our daughter puts my wife in an unbelievably good mood. we were outside playing hopscotch when she got home. Saw me jumping when it was my turn and that caused an outburst of laughter from her. Apparently seeing a 6' tall 280 lb man playing hopscotch is funny.

We all went in and started playing games together and after a while dinner came up. Our daughter wanted stir fry, which my wife an I weren't in the mood for at all. We mentioned pizza and how good that sounded then debated either Papa John's or this local place we go to sometimes. So after I clean up a little and my wife helps our daughter get ready for bed we decided on the local place, which may not have been a good idea because it was loaded with grease. So bad that even I made a comment about how my stomach didn't like it(i have a stomach of steel, nothing upsets my stomach, ever). She laughs again, and goes 'ohhh your old age is catching up to you'.

We watch a TV show we haven't watched in ages together, Criminal Minds. We haven't watched it in so long because we got out of the habit of watching it after our daughter was born. We have tried in the past but it put us too much on edge. I guess we were 'resensitized', we would always ask each other 'did you hear that?'. lol

But we watched that, then she said 'i'm sorry to bring it up but can you go over the papers tonight and let me know if you have any changes?' Inside my stomach is knotted at the thought of a divorce but I tell her I would look it over.

We came upstairs, both of us go straight into our daughters room to check on her and of course she's sideways in the bed. She's in no danger of falling off so we agree to let her sleep like that(one of her body pillows that we put on her sides is really soft so she likes sleeping on that). She then asks 'hey, could you listen out for [our daughter]? I want to take a hot shower with the door closed.' I reply of course because all I was doing was watching discovery channel starting this post.

Then she poked her head in here (the door is cracked open) and she said 'goodnight' and i said the same.

I'm so torn. I want her to tell me she has changed her mind but then again I don't want her rushing to judgement and cancelling. I know she thought about this whole thing for a while and to just call it off because of how I've changed the last week and a half would be crazy. I haven't been very spiritual in the past (which I've been talking to a few people about) but I pray that this works out.