Upwards - DB myself to happiness! #2

[Upwards]

He's just called at mine to talk & see if i'm ok, been her about an hour. He's said he's going to cut contact with her for a bit (he wont do it forever) out of respect for me & is going to ring her and explain that its causing me pain and he doesn't think its fair - he said its to allow me to heal plus give him space to focus on himself, he wants to just leave things between us as they are and both have our own space. I said I was worried that he was doing it for me so he'd resent me and he's assured me that he's doing it out of respect for me and not for me.

He said he'd love to come back and be happy with his family and wishes he could flick a switch and be ok but right now his feelings towards me aren't there and he knows that he'd more than likely stray because he's not ready to 100% commit and doesn't know if he ever will be because of his addict behaviors.

I feel a complete wreck today, hormones have got the better of me & i've just been a blubbering wreck. I dont even know if what he's said is positive or not??!! My head is a mess - hope I feel better tomorrow.