Meeting for "THE TALK" tonight

[mleigh4]

With my plans on moving my S and I back home, my H of course now wants to talk. We are meeting at a neutral public place, which I suggested, the house is just too gloomy right now. I am going in expecting to be walking out with plans of a divorce. If that is what he wants, than I will even begin the mediation process - that should be a good dose or reality for him. What's hard is that I have insisted I won't lift a finger to end this marriage, but at the same time, I can't continue on living in limbo, not knowing if he is seeing someone or not, feeling like a constant doormat. I miss companionship, I miss having someone care about me. I'm 44 and not getting any younger, I want to live life with someone who loves me and wants to be with me.

If he still says he is "confused" then I will agree to give him more space and time. I don't think I will push moving back home, only because I don't want to put my S in the middle of an unhealthy situation. That is the whole reason I moved out to begin with.

Wish me luck!