it has been a crazy few days since my last post. The old team that I used to coach won a national championship this past weekend. What an incredible moment and an awesome moment to be apart of. This weekend I will be traveling to campus to continue the celebration!
I recently moved back into my apartment. I had been gone almost a month to avoid some loneliness and the empty feeling of my W being gone. Sometimes its nice to be able to sit in my recliner and relax on my own time.
Had my first DB coaching session last week and was asked some good questions about myself and how to handle future situations. DB coach pointed out she feels my W doesn't really know what she wants, doesn't understand why she rushed the D process but also wants me to know the W is probably hurting as well. That while the W tells me this is the happiest she has been in a couple of months, which my coach said to believe, she has gone thru some changes too. I want my W to be happy and live a fulfilled life but selfishly obviously I want that to be with me. I know when she was the happiest and that was when her and I were on top of the world, my W's words not mine.
This past weekend my sister told me my W tried to add her on Snapchat again. My sister had previously deleted her from Snapchat but my W tried to add her again. the next day my W tried to add my sister again. Its crazy that during the detachment process that something like this makes my emotions go up and down. Why would my W do that?
I am currently looking into some AlAnon groups and setting up some IC sessions. I had seen a MC twice before this belw up to a whole new level.
Looking forward to this weekend! The count down to the Nashville half marathon is fast approaching at the end of the month, so my training is picking up which is a good thing!
Go Cubs!
___________________________________________________________ M: 32 W: 26 M 7 months, T 4 years M: 2nd M W: 1st M No kids
living separately 1/26/14 W files D 2/24/14 D final 4/28/14
