So here is a processing piece for me...

My W's family is coming to stay with us this weekend. About 6 of her brood. Some of them, it's the first time I have seen them since my W came home... dang, even since the A revelation in late 2012.

I have this weird feeling about her family. I love them. I really do, but I also get hurt and even embarrassed. Hurt because some of them didn't support my marriage and even allowed the affair to take place in their homes, spending time with xAP. And embarrassed because it ties into my insecurities that I am working through on what my W might have said to them to justify her behavior. It certainly wasn't, "oh RT is a wonderful wife, I love her so much." No... that is the furthest thing from the types of conversations my W probably had with her family on why she was cheating on me.

My plan, and I'm not worried about execution at all, I know I will handle it well... is to be my best me. To enjoy their company, laugh, have fun, and connect as a family. But I anticipate some inner dialogue and some personal struggle on it.

I guess I should keep in mind... I'd rather be me in this scenario with her family, than had to have been her with mine!

Onward and forward DB'ers. One "piece" at a time.


Me(F):40 WAW:44
T:13yrs M:9yrs
BD:2/12 (I saw a text)
ILYBINILWY: 5/12
PA admission: 12/12 (began 3/11)
S:2/13
Moves in w/AP D begins: 7/13
W moves home to R: 10/13