Thanks for responding, Artsy. You're right. I really do need to recognize the positives in the situation. He is going to IC. He is actively working on himself. Those are good things.
Still, I struggle with everything else being more important than our relationship. I also have a hard time accepting that my D7 and I get the short end of the stick while he lives his single life. It s*cks. He's told me over and over again that he is seeing a C to work on making himself a better person. Yeah, because walking out on your wife is the hallmark of being a good person. Clearly, all this anger isn't getting me anywhere though. Honestly, right now, I don't even like who he is.
I realize that it wouldn't actually help, but I sometimes think about filing for D myself. It wouldn't even be hard. My sister is a family L. At least then there would be a direction and I wouldn't be stuck in limbo.
