"Let it all go" see what the future holds!

[albamarie]

I was just going over my last post and am so happy to be sticking to my words. I am doing well, and understand this is my time to make the best out of my life, for my future.

I did have my moment of, well lets say, going back to point A and having the very long talk about our M and R. It was to some degree helpful, I heard some "I'm sorry's" I did get some validation, and lots of forgetfulness on his part. There was a point where he said, "why would I say those things to you"?

After that day I vowed no more. We had a very intense day of going over the last 3 yrs and we both ended it in tears. H said he loved me, he wanted to be better, and is still stuck. I left him to his demonds and allowed some closure for myself.

I can't say what became of H inside himself from our talk, I do see some things but really don't engage. He's still home, cell phone on the table, full disclosure when he comes home late from work, bank account back in order. All of that is good for him, I only wish him good health.

Today I am happy to have made new friends, try new things, and open up to some friends I have left behind. THis has been a full year so far, full of happy times, some forgiving times for family members especially, and for new adventures. Every step forward I make is for me and my family. H is sitting back as a spectator, that's ok, I'm going to keep moving forward.

DM