Here again, afraid it may be too little too late

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Talked to H last night,no problem with the additional bills. Although his walls are still up very high we did talk a little bit about "nothing." Up until now it's been talk about what we needed to talk about and hang up. So that was positive. And I was the one who ended the conversation. Of course I did text him a little bit later because I was thinking about something he said. Just small talk stuff.

Here is something that struck a chord tho, maybe I'm over thinking it as usual. He hasn't been feeling well since last fall, better than he was but had gone to the Dr and run some tests while he was home (one of the bills). When I asked him how he's feeling he said "feeling real good." Now, I know this is a good thing but I feel like it was almost I feel good now this burden (me)has been lifted. OR it doesn't matter how he's feeling he's going to tell me he's feeling good anyway.

These are the small things I waste my time thinking about, it could just mean he's feeling good and nothing more....ugh!