not sure how far gone we are...

[SeanB]

Another evening in the books.
She doesn't seem to avoid me at home as much, but I suspect it is because we have the boys @ home the first few days of the week. she had stated she wanted to keep appearances to them as much as possible. She has stated several times that I am their step father. "That will never change" The boys love me very much. The desperate side of me clings to that.

I keep trying to detach, give her space in the house and let her initiate conversation. The detachment is almost as hard as processing the sadness, panic and heartache over the whole mess.

She keeps bringing up IC for her. I take that as a good sign, but I should only take it at face value. It's hard not to cling to that since she initiated the question multiple times.

I will continue to post updates. I am saving up for a DB session, I need the coaching, but am glad to have the forum in the meantime.