Blues. I am also getting much better at deflecting. The events of this weekend hurt but I really don't let his words bother me or take anything personally anymore. It helps that I have caught him in so many lies. I just don't believe anything he says.

In other news today is my birthday. Started off badly with a stomach bug and s having a huge tantrum but got much better. Got some unexpected flowers and gifts delivered from friends. H called to say happy birthday but got off phone as fast as he could. Mil and fil called too. The nicest surprise was from my mom. I have felt like she doesn't understand the path I have taken. She doesn't get why I haven't just filed or really get how I am trying to transform myself. She sent me a card with a pic of a woman meditating. The message was "May your forces of light Kick the a$$ of forces of darkness." She said she saw it and immediately thought of me. So maybe she gets me more than I thought.

Me 44 H 42
M 10 T 12 (at time of BD)
Ss 20 16
S11 (special needs)

BD 9/13 H "unhappy for years" moves to seperate bedroom
10/13 EA/PA confirmed but denied
S and I move out 3/15