[BrightFuture]

Thanks, Busting. It does seem like H is complete in his path and just like he said last year this is phase of his life after me. It looks like he is following with it. He doesn’t seem confused to me.

Yes, I thought I was letting him go before my trip to the vacation home. Here is what I found on this site and saved for my reference. This was Job’s posting I believe on stages of MLC by HearBlessing:
“Please let them go! They need this time to heal in order to come back to you as whole people. I hope that in time, you wil understand what I'm trying to tell you today. You must let them go entirely, physically, mentally and emotionally in order to get them back. As long as you are still tied to them, they will continue to run.”

So, how do you do that? When I start pulling away and let go, there is something H does that brings that hope back. Then I have this hope, meaning I’m tied to him again, so he does something to show that he is still on his path away from me. How do I stay in that state of letting go?

So, H called to ask of he could come over, saying that he was at the store and ready to drive to my house. I said that he can come over. 2 min later he was here, so much for being at the store. He asked about his business suites right away and started to make his way to the bedroom. Then hesitated for a moment and turned back to check the closet for his coats. Wow, he remembered that he might have some coats here. So, I went to the bedroom and brought out his suites. Meantime he picked one jacket out the closet and told me that I can donate the rest (two more.) Then he went to the garage to look for a rope to tide his suites in the car.

It is kind of amazing that he thinks he can go around the house without asking me for any permission. I think he hesitated to go to the bedroom because I didn’t let him in the house this morning. He probably thinks that I have something to hide and he didn’t want to invade my privacy. I’m curious if this is a new thought for him, because before he was going to any room he wanted to looking for his things. Does it mean he thinks that I’m still there for him and going anywhere?

I gave him new numbers for car insurance and he told me to e-mail him, so he could transfer the money for his portion. He was in a hurry to leave this time. My phone rang and he rushed out of the door, telling me that he is already late to start driving back to the vacation home. No hug again.