I know how it feels when H pops up again in my life, and it not that often. It still throws me off the balance. I cannot even imagine dealing with H like yours. My H is not that crazy, but still selfish. I do feel that clock is ticking too. All my friends and family remind me about it all the time. They say that I cannot have my life on hold and need to start dating and moving on. But, I feel that I need more time to heal before doing that. I KNOW I need more time. So do you. Your H makes it harder, because he would not live you alone.
I wish I could give you a better advice. I just try to remind myself that no storm lasts forever, and there are better times ahead. Hang in there. You are doing great.
M:50 H:52 S28 (my S from previous marriage) M:17 + 3 BD: 06/12 S: 06/12 - H works in another state
