Some comments to you may sound harsh, but it's meant to get you out of destructive thoughts or behavior that will further damage your M, or your self-worth.
If you feel defensive (not saying you do, but just in case), as my IC would challenge: why such a strong reaction? What's behind it?
If you have Al-Anon in your area, I highly suggest you go. The concepts apply to all areas of life, especially self-improvement and helping you deal with your emotions.
Me: 39 H: 45 Second marriage for both H left 12/2013 M:4 T:5.5