Just catching up. Everyone makes mistakes. Reliving them doesn't change them. I've made some whoppers in my life as we all have and I cringe to think about them. Let it go and think about how awesome you are. I think the hypnotist is a great idea. I hope that helps with the hair pulling.
In regards to caring, I know we talk about detachment and just how important it is . I think when we have procreated with someone there is always a little extra something in our minds. I mean.....you love this person (or what he was) and have children with him. So, sometimes our minds wander a bit.
Give yourself a hug today:-)
3 kids BD 12/15/13 (IDKIILY. ) Rope dropped Cirque du Soleil style D final 9-9-14 "Some people are born on 3rd base and go through life thinking they hit a triple." Barry Switzer