I have to admit: I *did* smile a little in my heart today, thinking of the eye-lock and smirk from OW at the grocery store the other day. I just wear my smirk on the inside. BUT, it's actually MY heart that gets hurt.
He knew what he was doing, too. Things started getting a little too heated, and he said, "Okay, now I'm just being stupid." That's when he decided it was time to leave.
Today, he stopped by because S7 was up, sick, all night. H brought drinks to the house at lunch. I left to get popsicles. He didn't try to kiss me, but his hands were wandering. I didn't reciprocate at all. I know I should probably say, "Hey, pal. None of that hanky-panky 'til you're done with OW." But I think I'll just stick to actions speaking louder than words.
I'm secretly (well, not so secretly NOW - ha) so afraid I'm going to cave again. It's soooooo freaking hard! Good news is I shouldn't see him until later this week. And maybe I'll just plan not to be here. Just to stay in my safe zone.
You are exactly right, of course. I need to back completely off and let her TRY to fulfill all his needs. Damm!t this is hard.
Okay, cold shower. Then gym.
M: 40 H: 44 Married 14 years S11 & D6; D20 & D19 from previous M 2BDs/PAs, 8 years apart Piecing: April 2014
