So, still just recapping and journaling for myself... kind of hard to remember what I've written and what I haven't since my posts still aren't showing up, but just writing is therapeutic. One week today since the bomb was dropped. Got a nice hug before W left in the morning today. She made this little noise when she hugged me...this sound we both make when we're feeling particularly...close to each other. A little cooing noise. Stuff like that makes me want to say "why why why do you do things like that if you want a divorce?!?!" Thank god I've been able (so far) to keep my trap shut.
She mentioned today that she noticed I've been working out a lot this past week. Wasn't sure how to respond so just said "yeah, I've been trying to stick to it at least 3 times a week" and left it at that. Gut reaction was to say that I was trying to keep myself busy but managed to keep that to myself.
Every Monday night she takes the kids to her parents (who live right down the street) for dinner, so that's where they'll be tonight. Kind of pissed that they're allowing her to move in with them...I could understand if it was a situation involving abuse or something similar, but I don't think giving her an easy out is really beneficial. I was raised in a family in which my parents' attitude would be something like "we're sorry you're having problems but you're adults and you need to work this out in a way that doesn't involve moving back in with us." Oh well. Nothing I can do about that. I know she will have some kind of conversation with her parents tonight about our situation and what her plans are, so I'm going to try to mentally prepare myself for that...which essentially means prepare myself to shut my mouth, open my ears, and rehearse the phrase "I understand how you feel and you've given me some things to think about."
H: 43 W: 37 M: 11 years T: 12 years S: 11 D: 8 ILYBINILWY, "I want to move out" and "I want a divorce": 3/23/14 MC started: 9/22/14 Affair and past infidelity discovered: 9/26/14 Piecing: 10/20/14
