Went out to the paint store yesterday after the no ring. I just needed space to get out emotion.
Met H and two daughters at D10 soccer game. My D's team played the number 1 team and we won 3 to 1. My D scored an amazing goal, really it was amazing (I could go on and on), so that brought us together because we were proud. It was a very physical game with the other team really pushing, my H wrote an email to our coach complaining about the other team. I normally would have expressed annoyance by this because there is nothing our coach can do. I'm the team manager and parents are crazy, so I really try not to add to the crazy. Anyway I said nothing, my H is not a reflection on me, and he felt he was doing the right thing for our D, I do believe that.
Later my D17 and her boyfriend made us all dinner, H has been very happy all weekend. I'm completly mindreading, but he seems to feel free and happy. Tonight we celebrate D9 birthday by going out to dinner. H leaves tomorrow, he will be gone for weeks and It will be easier for me to go back to detaching. Soon we will tell the girls and H will move his things to Denver. I had a dream last night that he changed his mind, even in my dream I knew I did not want to back to the old marriage, but it felt nice. I'm just rambling now, lol.
M45 H46 M16 yrs D17, D10, D7 DB 1-23-2014 H filed D 2-14-2014
