I have been worried that this whole thing would make me bitter. I have seen that happen to people and I have been so conscious of watching my emotions to make sure that wasn't happening. I think I am going to be ok because. ..

This morning when I was getting coffee I overheard the girl working (young early 20s) talking to an older gentleman. She was talking about how she is marrying a guy she has known for a few months. The man said he was married for 50 years before he lost his wife and throughout his entire marriage he kept learning from his wife.

I think if I was going to be bitter that would have been the moment. Standing between all the hope and optimism that h and I had in the beginning and the vision (Expectation) I had of us growing old together.

Instead I was excited for her anf a little nervous for her as well jumping in so quickly. And both happy and sad for him.

And sad for me. I did go into my store and cry. But no bitterness.

Me 44 H 42
M 10 T 12 (at time of BD)
Ss 20 16
S11 (special needs)

BD 9/13 H "unhappy for years" moves to seperate bedroom
10/13 EA/PA confirmed but denied
S and I move out 3/15