WAW...Again

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Not sure if or when these posts will ever show up... Guess I'm just kind of journaling anyway.

Today will make it a full week since W said she wants a divorce. No relationship talk since that day. Had a good weekend, all things considered. She works Friday and Saturday nights, so that usually puts me at home with the kids (need to get a sitter one of the those nights soon as part of GAL).

When she got home on Saturday I was watching TV, so she fixed a couple of drinks for us and sat down with me and we hung out talking and laughing for a couple of hours before going to bed. Sunday we ran some errands and then took the kids to a late lunch. Had a really great time and, again, you never would guess from outward appearances what is going on. After the kids went to bed we did our Sunday night ritual--watched the Walking Dead--and then called it a night.

Most nights when we're in bed W asks me to either rub her or "comfort touch" her (her term for a light massage that helps soothe her to sleep), and Sunday night was no exception. Gave her a gentle head massage until I could tell from her breathing she was asleep. I have to remind myself that this does NOT mean anything and that I must assume that since the last thing she communicated is that she intends to move out, this is still her plan. In the meantime however, I am following some advice I read here from one of the vets and am creating as much pleasantness and good feelings while W is still here in the house. A massage, for example, costs me nothing. To offer one is to pursue, but I think to give one when asked creates good will and gives her something to miss when (and I must say "when" not "if") she leaves.