So, I figured I would update a bit. Been sober for 45 days. Doing regular daily meetings, participating a lot. Probably going to have a job starting on Tuesday. Nothing is certain until its certain.
We coordinate/talk frequently.. but as far as talking about anything relationship wise.. its very rare. It is mostly positive when we do. She is noticing changes and is a bit skeptical, especially when I go a bit over the top. Almost all communication is logistics related, recently its also become financial as its tax time. We get to pay some pretty hefty taxes this year. In short, I believe I handled this issue very well, I am a bit peeved that I get almost all the financial burden of this but if that is what it takes. I am willing. Small price to pay to return to my family in the grander scheme of things.
Last week she took the kids on a road trip to see some friends and family across the state. i was tasked with going to their home to feed the cat and empty the litter box. mother in law was to visit upon their return. i left flowers for the mother in law. Upon return I was thanked for them by my wife. =)
Today we made plans to watch my younger brother perform in a play together next weekend.. not like an official date.. but we are having my mother watch the kids.
Things are improving slowly and ever slightly. I could certainly be in denial but a month ago none of this would have happened. She wouldn't have agreed to go along with me alone to anything.
I've found the counseling sessions to be mostly useless as Alcoholics Anonymous affords me much better opportunities to learn much more about myself and learn from others. The bonus being its free. The rewards are priceless frequent and numerous.
So, I'm hoping and praying a lot. I'm doing a lot of actions as well. I honestly don't know if everything will get fixed. I try to maintain a positive attitude towards everything and spend less time focusing on the situation to let it handle itself.
