Upwards - DB myself to happiness! #2

[Upwards]

More positive steps...

Last night H text to ask could he call to collect something, he was coming today anyway and didn't NEED it but I agreed anyway, he stayed for about 30 min and we chatted/laughed then he left - was nice for him to call because he wanted to even if he did use a cover story!

Today is Mother's Day in the UK so he came here when the kids woke up and helped them cook me breakfast and give my my gifts/cards, then we all went to the park - it was really nice. At the park just before we left he said that today is the first day that he's enjoyed life in a long time (because of being miserable in addiction for years) and thanked me for it. We both said we felt free now of the burden of the past 12 months & both agreed we are healing well. As he left I thanks him and he hugged me really tight & kissed my neck.

Later on I took the kids to his mums to give her card/gift off the kids and he was there, he asked me for a lift. As we were driving I got a little upset so he reached and squeezed my hand & asked what was wrong, I said that I'd had a lovely day and it makes me sad how we can't do it often, he replied "maybe we will in the future, I've really really enjoyed your company this weekend & I like the way things are moving, let's just see what happens" so I nodded & changed the subject.

Progress, massive progress!!! I was so worried that us ML on Friday may confuse him & cause him to run a mile but it doesn't seem to have his attitude towards me has gradually switched so he's caring & considerate again and actually asking how I am instead being consumed in himself, he talks to me with fondness instead of being cold.

DB is amazing!! I'm not having an expectations yet but I've had the confirmation I need to show that my H is moving in the direction I'd like him to - happy today, first day in a long time I've felt real happiness, my kids are amazing & I'm so thankful for them