Redefining Hope and Success

[juliegayle]

Bug. I expect a lot from myself. I feel like I should learn the lesson once and not make the same mistake again.

I should not have snooped. I knew I would get hurt but I did it anyway.

I should not have gotten hurt. I knew he was in an A but I let it hurt anyway.

I should have sat down right after discovery and practiced some breathing until I put it all into perspective but instead I called and cried to a friend at 3 am.

I should have laughed off that Beelzabub reference but instead I started questioning if I am still doing anything that would make him see me that way.

I should never have let myself start having expectations when he has been nice these past few weeks.

I have learned to be patient with other people. I need to figure out how to extend the same courtesy to myself. It's so much harder.