Labug, your question really puzzled me and I am very curious to know what you are getting at, because I have no clue.
Today at work I had a pretty big f-up. It messed up. I cant let it. I dont understand why I f-ed it up. It was such a simple thing but I had a lot going on at the moment and I dropped the ball.
I am beating myself up and realize how much I beat myself up about stuff.
I know I am not perfect but this mess up was 101 and am pissed at myself and embarrassed. I feel like a loser.
How do I let it go? I really dont know.
Alanon people say "say the serenity prayer" ... not working
Only thing that kind of helps is reminding myself that Tom Brady and Payton Manning both have lost big big games but they come back and play the next time. And they turn it on. This analogy helps.
Love you all for reading and listening. I wont have made it with out you
"What is your mind trying to tell you that may not be true?"
It seemed that you were creating a story about XH/OW's R based on his buying a car. Those kinds of thoughts can often snowball in our brains and leave us twisting and with expectations.
About your being so critical with yourself, we are sisters in that shite, too. I could obsess for hours on one little mistake. It also made me super critical of others.
Being more compassionate with me and silencing that (untrue)judge voice has made me more compassionate with others.
It's a practice, but I challenge it every time it starts up. It works. ((( )))
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
