Can't sleep tonight and have tons of things going thru my head. They range from positive to negative future possibilities with H and dwelling on the past. All of which are not helping me NOW. I have been using my counselors advice and it does seem to help, at least momentarily.

I keep trying to remind myself to take one day at a time and don't dwell on the past or worry about the future. In order to do that I am trying to set goals for myself and steps to reach them. Especially with exercising and eating healthy because I know when I'm doing what I need to in that area I feel and look better.

Me-44 (45)
H- 50 (51)
M-'96

S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)

BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas)
home Oct(sep rooms)
(EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed)
insists wants D through July 2015
no more talk of D since