I have started writing down each hurtful thing H does (like leaving work early every day for her but I would BEG and be made to feel horrible for asking) and I am keeping them in a jar. I tell myself after I put it in the jar I am not to think about it. One day I hope to burn them when I can finally forgive. I think I got the idea from some post on here.....

Maybe this will help to be a release to you?

Me: 35 husband:39
Sons 16 and 11 from my first marriage
Twins 5 (boy/girl)
Daughter 3
Affair bomb 2/27/14
He moved in with ow 3/13/14
OW kicked him out 6/15/14
4/2016 he seeks help for sexual addiction