I am glad to hear you are having a better day today.
I've been reading all along, and your post the other night made me want to cry.
I have had episodes like that as well - when even after all this time, something triggers me and the pain comes back in a rush and so unexpectedly.
I try to remind myself that I am still grieving the loss of the M and that it's not a linear process. That helps me have compassion and more empathy for myself, which is something I've always had a hard time with.
Take care of yourself - you deserve it.
(((((((((Ad)))))))))))
Me & H: 44 D7, D6, S3 Together: 20y, M: 17y EA: 11/13/10, Sep: 12/23/10 EA becomes PA: Spring 2011 H filed for D: 09/06/12 D Negotiating began 2/15 OW seemingly gone on 3/15 Still negotiating D