So do you think I should just plan to go alone with the boys then? It is so hard to imagine going without her but I suppose it would be really difficult going with her as she is now. I am trying to work on myself. I had already joined a gym last October and have lost over 40lbs since then as I have really thrown myself into getting fit and eating healthily. I have almost full-time responsibility for the boys as this seems to have affected her desire to be a mother also and she will only have them over-night on alternate Saturdays. She really isn't the girl I married in fact I barely recognise her from the person she was last November just before this started. She is acting like a teenager and seems oblivious to my pain and to how hard it is for me assuming fulltime childcare responsiblities as well as working fulltime at my demanding job. It is just baffling and I wish I could understand where my beautiful loving wife has gone. I know all I can control is myself so I will try to do that but I am emotionally drained and very tired all of the time. I just worry about making bad decisions and choices as I want to follow the best path in all of this even though I realise she may well be gone for good.
