Antonia, I hear ya it is so hard going through these big life moments without a partner. I think job is totally right in a month you will feel so proud of yourself for taking the next steps forward and taking care of yourself.
Dont forget to treat yourself the next few weeks before the surgery. Take it easy, Get a manicure or massage. Keep posting on these boards. Reach out to the support system you have. Dont try to do it alone.
Big hugs and love
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