Julie - I am so sorry you are having a hard time and that you confirmed the A. My H lied through his teeth about the A. We both saw a text OW had sent him and he tried to tell me that there was no text and I was seeing things. I could not believe that H honestly thought that I was an idiot. They will protect the A at all costs. My H's A has been going for over a year and he has still not voluntarily admitted anything, let alone showed any type of remorse.
It is OK that you got upset. Now you just need to keep going and figure out where you want to go on your journey.