Antonia, Sending you hugs today. Right now you have a lot of things going through your mind, but in a month or so, you'll be glad you made the decision to have the surgery. You'll be amazed at how much you will feel and not have that pain reminding you each and every time it crops up that something has to be done.
I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
