Well I hadn't seen H for over a week or spoken on the phone (only email/text for business & kids) and so yesterday we had a business meeting at work - all went fine & we got on well. I've been feeling much stronger so decided to work hard on being strong, confident & happy as I'm going to see him a lot this weekend.
Last night my H stayed over at my house to take care of the kids whilst I was out with family/friends - when i arrived home it was a little awkward but we both relaxed & ended up sat talking about everything for over 2hrs!! He indicated several times that he's been considering trying again & we talked a lot about where we went wrong and how we've ended up here, it was good to properly talk and surprisingly found that we agreed on everything.
We talked about the issues we've been working on ourselves and how far we've both come, also how we plan on maintaining that in the future, what we would like from a relationship in the future etc. I have been reading the 5LL and explained some of the concepts in there (love tank, both speaking different languages etc) and he was very interested & asked me could I get him a copy. Afterwards I gave him a hug & said good night, I told him if he wanted cuddles he knew where I was but absolutely no pressure, a few mins later he came upstairs & we ML.
I intend to just keep the pressure off and continue working on myself, its so difficult not to get my hopes up but I know it's early days and I'm just pleased that the ice is melting & it feels like he's mellowing. He was so much more open to hearing my view and actually seemed interested, he's showing me respect now and considering my feelings/emotions instead of just his own - there's a long way to go but I'm happy with the direction things are going.
I'm unsure whether we should go back to NC again after this weekend, i think it's probably the best way at the moment as the past week with complete space has helped us both...
Divorce Final: Oct 2014
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