She left - 2

[gogofo]

It was nice to hear some of her feelings and understand what her perspective was on our relationship.

I have identified some more areas where I need to figure myself out, but it seems like my progress that is helping me has also had some affect on the situation.

An interesting statement she made was that it was the cooking that ended it. Cooking was something we are both passionate about. We used to cook together all the time near the end I was so stressed out and self centered I could not figure out how to share the kitchen. I was worried about myself and trying to make the dinner perfect. I did not think about her or what she wanted or how she felt.

More evidence of my self centeredness and lack of empathy or seeing things from a different point of view. This was interpreted into controlling and not caring for the W, but I think my self centered point of view and feelings of inadequacy and like I was out of control and could do nothing right were underneath my actions.

Working on these feelings and developing my empathy have been and continue to be one of my main 180s.

If I felt better about myself I think I would not feel like I was unworthy of spending time on myself instead of spending it all with W and kids.