I'm a master procrastinator, I have nothing hanging over this causing it to be immediately necessary, and I have a history of my brain blocking me from understanding that I have feelings that are painful. I literally do not even know they're there. So that might be going on too, even though I've been trying to find them. Just feels blank...blank and avoidant.
It's really not a very big deal, I keep telling myself. Anyway, I did a little bit this week and then gave a serious chunk of time to job applications. I hope to be spending some of next week in interviews.
Adinva 51, S20, S18 M24 total 6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out 9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50 5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend __ Happiness is a warm puppy.
